I dont understand just dont.... Why did she want to do this to me?

I know Ive made a mistake by telling B. I told her before I got to know how a person she is. I feel so stress about A's issue. But after telling B and later got to notice she is not those simple type. A should know as well. But yet A choose to believe what B said to her. A say she is disappointed in me. Then what about me?

The whole story goes like this:

One night near to sleeping time. B called me and chatted abit. B that time just joined for 2weeks. I was so stress up with A matters and was so tired and there B call me up. B told me alot of things that happened way before she join or best happen last year. I was suprise at how come she know. While chatting for awhile, I feel she is mature person that I think she worth the trust. And so, I told her A's issue.

A's issue is very complicated. B later promised that it will be secret. But later that I know, she start to leak to A that she know something of her. I told her not to mention a word about what I told her and she promised me again and told me what ever she say just deny it.

Till few days back, when A was at B desk teach some system thing, B wrote on paper to A EVERYTHING I told her. BEST RIGHT!! I didnt know at all till A say she want to talk to me. Then she ask me did I tell B anything about that issue. As B say no matter what she say to A, I just deny what A asking. So I deny it.

Later A suggest to go out for a talk, B and C go after her while Im busy continue my work. I feel that Im here to work not pay to do personal stuff. Well... They went out for like 30mins. What they said to each other? I DONT KNOW! Later A suggest to go out for coffee talk. Ok, fine then...

Best, Ive been outcast right away (thats how I feel). A, B and C with a guy seated and 1st I ask why is that guy here. He start his issue which I FIND NO LOGIC!!! He said that if anything just ask him dont bother B and C... And that C and him are friend only. Well I feel that this thing A also been saying why am I the only one kena? And I did ask B since B and C good friend. Then if like that, WHY B CAN ASK A ABOUT MY PERSONAL THING? A also feel annoyed yet WE NEVER COMPLAIN!!!

I feel that whatever I want to say seems useless. Cos 3 + 1 against me. All stand side by side. A say she is disappointed with me. Its not like she dont know B character. Why A was in anger mood so brainless? Why didnt she think before assuming Im in total wrong? I know I also got wrong. But doesnt mean that A dont need to ask for my explaination? Still consider you know me well? Counted yourself my BESTFRIEND? Is this how you judge a friend? Ya I let you down. But what about you?

Since you say your story, and got B and C stand by your side. THEN FINE!!! Go for it. But I can say. I wont regards you as friend anymore.

Another thing is, I just cant understand why B keep bringing the issue out. What got to do to your excuses cos you are older than us, you came across and see more than I do? And you scare of something will happen! I tell you CRAPS!!! If you mean, I will tell another person in the company, I can tell you! I WONT AND NEVER!!! By telling you the issue is ENOUGH and made me super REGRET!! I regards you as friend and trusted you. But you prove me wrong.

You, yourself told me, just deny whatever you telling A. Well.. I LISTEN TO YOU AND THIS IS WHAT I GET BACK!!! Is this your plan?? What you dont want break A and my friendship. BUT by letting A know that I told you this issue. IT THE END!!!! If you think you want give me a lecture by letting me feel lonely. I TELL YOU I WONT!!! Cos I LOVE THE WAY!! LESS PROBLEM!!!

WHATEVER larhx... If you really judge yourself old enough and see more and pass through alot. SHOULDNT YOU BE MATURE ENOUGH WHEN PEOPLE SAY IT SECRET MEAN SECRET??? HELLO AUNTIE!!! YOU GOT YOUR WISH GRANTED!!!

WHAT A GREAT SCAR YOU LEAVE TO ME!!! I will never treat colleagues as friends anymore. Even we see each other everyday. I will just keep distance from colleagues... PERSONAL IS PERSONAL!!! NEVER SHARE WITH COLLEAGUES!!!