Now already going to the end of March, and finally got abit of time to blog abit now =p No choice... Nothing much to blog... Even I do also cant blog hahaax... But a little update barhx~~~

14 Feb:
I reach office around 7.05am, right after I put down my stuffs, I went up to 2nd level with a gift on my hand. I placed the gift on his chair and rush back down to my desk =]

The whole day Im trying to act as if the gift not from me, but too bad, he keep guessing its me hahax... But in the end I did admit that I bought it =] Its a perfume but I forgot which brand it is. Hahaax~~~

15 Feb:
He msned me hahaax...

He: hey hey... when u free... i owe u a meal... for the v-day present...
Me: orh
He: so u let me know la...
Me: orh
He: what u want to eat? korean food?
Me: i anything... then what u want to eat leix?
He: i want long john or burger king but i paiseh to treat such cheapo stuff
Me: erm its not abt the price but abt the sincerity... lolx
He: i always have sincerity with me. i mean.... say my name out loud... thats all the sincerity u can have...

His msn simply just bright up my day hahax =]

3rd March:

We have another MSN conversation:

He: later u taking which bus?
Me: ur bus. y?
He: going where?????
Me: meet boyfriend. y?
He: wooo... got bf liao?
Me: yup. y??
He: no la... nothing... juz feel happy for u...
Me: orh. thank you =]

To me this short conversation is funny~~~

9th March:

Another cute conversation between us ^^

He came down to settle with a new staff's PC who is seated behide me, while he going off, I saw the colour of his top,
Me: OMG. Wear pink again -.-"
He: Smile* pei he you ma.
-=off he go=-

-=in msn=-
Me: what pei he me -.-" J heard what u say lorhx
He: she hear liao got what reaction? jealous? lol...
Me: too bad. no. lolx. she laughing
He: she juz now ignore me lor... at the pantry...
Me: ........ again -.-" how long she want to ignore u worx. u should ignore her back
see how she react. lolx
He: she wont care liao... 17th she going to say bye bye... after that she will forget about all of us... wu qing wu yi
Me: thats normal. lolx. but not for me. lolx. see me n alicia. an example =p
He: ya... rarely like that... if i resign or u resign... we keep in touch ok... ? dont be like that who...
Me: lolx. ok. dont worry. i will fan u till u brust
He: haha... hot n cold...
Me: lolx
He: later lunch... eat donuts dunno full or not... i brought bread+ donuts
Me: ....
He: but i eat bread i full liao. so donuts eat later...
Me: aiyooo. y eat like that -.-" u dont lazy larhx. must leave office for awhile derhx. later very stress. lolx
He: ya...
Me: still ya -.-" then y still stay in office?? lolx. J says "tell 'him' to moan to her. lolx"
He: J wants me to moan to her? she horny?
Me: no. the her = winnie
He: ok i moan to J...
Me: ....... later what u going to get from J dont call for help and i can confirm
He: haha
Me: u not getting something you want from J =p
He: like what? moaning?
Me: ........ u not coming??
He: but i got donut already... dont want to waste
Me: ...
He: later come back we go downstairs talk?
Me: bring along lorhx. later we 1pm then reach. like ytd. lolx
He: ahaha. i want to study leh
Me: .........
He: later go sch got test
Me: ... ok barhx. we go lerhx. bye~
He: bye

18 March:

Me: U still got feeing for her?
He: Why u ask… I still got feeling… but is different from last time… she is like older sister to me now…
Me: Oh… What is the feeling when liking someone?
He: Dunno how to say… maybe… its about feeling optimistic, lying to oneself?
Me: If u never admit ur feeling to the person u like and u know that person don’t like u, will u stop liking or try to confess?
He: Depends la… haha…
Me: How to depend? Lolx…
He: See who the person is lor…
Me: How to see?
He: Use your own judgment la … don’t always listen to your fren … your friend have different agenda different motive from u … n sometimes, they aren’t even clear about what they really want, cant control their own emotions…
Me: My judgement? Haix… I wish I can tell him, but I scare we can’t be friend after I tell him.
He: Can still be friend la … if cannot the guy really very xiao qi … maybe the guy already figure out liao …
Me: Then do u think I should tell him not? Give me suggestion leix… But I think this guy is quite xiao qi… Lolx…
He: Sometimes u have to try liao then will know …and … no matter what happens, just treat it as a lesson in life … u know … life is more than just love n relationships …
Me: Ok… Thanks for advise…

For the moment, these are the cute conversation between me and the guy I like... However, I dont think I will confess to him as for what I heard, he doesnt like girls to be bigger size than him, she like older girls too...

And I never confess to any guys before, am scare of rejection. And even though I know we still can be friend, but the awkward will remain there... Best solution now is to reduce my feelings for him... Im currently trying my best to stop talking to him and till the extend for me to block him in my msn >.< Feel sorry for him but no choice... Guess this is the best way for me...

But Im happy that I finally realised that my heart is open now ^^ Thanks to him, for making my heart beat again after 3years going to 4years of this heartless life...