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i dont want to continue working here!!! why always i'm the one getting all sort of fucking stress!!! why cant i have a better life and even working life... why do people keep giving me stress or torture me!!!

wont my life get better?? im tired and sick of my life... how i wish i can just die peacefully in my sleeps... haix... got this sickness is killing me... cant have proper life... cause of this even change my life to hell... since is like that why not just let me die!!! let the king of the hell to torture me better than give me bully and torture...

i'm tired!!! cant i have a rest without thinking and no burden??? i feel like go on holiday!!! but where can i go plus i don't have money to go-.- im so useless... i cant solve my problem myself and all i do is cry and cry... wth... no matter how i cry... problem still not solve... waste my effort and tears by crying... haix...

y that time stop me from dying? if not i now wont be so stress and give people torture... am i really so good to be bully?? bully and torture me really make you all happy?? since like to torture and bully me... why not play SM game on me... lock me in a cage then set a firece animal which eat human meat to come scare me...

or ask few huge and muscular ugly guys come group rape me?? isn't it fun see me in this fucking state?? wow!! i cant imagine if i were to be torture in rape... also not bad... at least i have the experience before i die!! what is my interest?? till now i still dont know what i want... think the most i want is get a good boyfriend... and get marry so i can get out of that house!!! and to be FREE!!!

then i work full-time as housewife plus setting up blogshop and take care of my children^^ not bad yax... haix... but who will want me... haix... i so choosy... plus by my standard... haix... DIFFICULT lorhx =p shall end here roarrrrrrrrrrr...