ytd wake up 1st thing happen after i open my eyes was tear flowiin out 4 no reason... wipe my tear den mood swing strt tinkin of e past tinkin of him haix... i dunno y -.- haix...

2dae go wrk half day... lolx... im admin asst bcum half techincian liaox kekex... my senior manager ask miie help 1 of e technician 2 take out screws of e cybershot camera wahahaha... 12.30pm end wrk n took company bus back hm...

again emo time... my com lik zhen dua wo >< sobbiex... kip dc n cant connect 2 explorer wad e shyt man... raymond noe hahax... saw miie type vulgar in msn while chattin wib him... hahax...

went 2 slp awhile n finally mind relax abit... guess i noe y im so EMO liaox... 4yrs ago derhx 2dae date... is e dae we 1st time broke up 1mth n patch back derhx date... cos of sum1 tryin 2 spoil our r/s bt in e end is patch back lolx...

tink of those day... we kept fought n quarrel alot n overcome every problems bt in e end... lost 2 tis obstacle -.- haix...

ever since e last obstacle which is 2yrs ago when i wrk at arcarde... tt prob is e most serious 1!!! n we still able 2 get back n frm thr on i told myself 2 treasure him n trust him as he is my everything... bt den again he hurt miie wib same thing bt other way round... n he nvr wan 2 return...

im been lettin go everything n hab a fight by facin him 2 times in JJ n JX b'dae n i DID IT!!! n everything was in place n peace... till after thailand trip im strt 2 hab e fear haix... bt i jux heck care n force myself 2 slp... numbin urself is bad nvr folo my step ><

im usin torture 2 slp bt jux hate him kip enterin my dream n hate alone... i wish sum1 thr i can trust appear... sum1 can replace him it need nt b a guy can b a gurl tt let miie feel secure^^ im nt lesbian bt soon will b i guess hahax...

i always feel lik msg him askin hw is he wad he been doin bt i end up gib up on it as NO POINT noe-in... i dun wan him 2 corupt my mind again... i reali reali wish i hab peace mind 4 my remainin lives^^ i dunno when e time i b slpin n nvr wake up bt i do noe tt im strtin 2 slp alot even i jux woke up in e mornin i still wanna slp n even outside anywhr i m... eye always forcin miie 2 enter dream n im so fear of it cos he been enterin my dreamland ><

HE is so scary... y does he continue 2 huant miie?? he shd huant his gf n nt miie pls stop i scare tt 1 day i woke up in mental hospital... arrgghhh... god end my life fast i dun wish 2 continue tis kinda life... if nt let miie hab peace ><

bless miie